Anonymous said: how do you feel before/afters fit in with body positivity and fat shaming? I feel kinda let down by your recent one tbh. I appreciate that you have done a thing for yourself that is good for you as an individual but before and afters have been used for and are designed to praise you for not being as gross and disgusting as you were before, and contributes to the fat shaming culture we have, especially when someone like yourself, with a vocal history of advocating for fat people against shaming.
I think being a woman who is actively changing her lifestyle and yes, losing weight, while also still believing that she was EQUALLY awesome when she was 320 pounds is hard.
I dont flood my feed with Before/After photos. In fact, I don’t know what Before/After photo you’re referring to, just to put in perspective that they aren’t a constant for me. When I post a before/after, it’s not to say “LOOK HOW DISGUSTING I WAS!”. It’s for a few reasons. One, I’d like people to know my story and my journey. It’s been a long road. I was confident in who I was and didn’t let anything hold me back. I also had no clue about nutrition or exercise, my relationship with food was purely emotional and I had degenerating discs in my back (still do). I love myself enough to ACKNOWLEDGE that I was big for a variety of reasons, but ultimately I wasn’t being healthy with my choices.
We are told we have to be thin in order to be loved and respected. But, we’re also told we have to stay big because to actively change that while talking about body positivity and love is seen as treason. That’s fucked. And, it’s hard for me because when I lost weight I received backlash and was only excused because my health problems “made it okay”. So, the way the “thinner” communities had turned on me because of my size, people in the plus size community turned on me. That’s disheartening, because that was the place where I found a lot of strength. I was eating a whole food diet and going for nightly walks and the way my body changed because of that inspired and/or offended people. It shouldn’t have done either. I was just doing what I felt I should be doing, not as a judgement on the activities of others or an act of war on my body.
Personally, sometimes I need to see my photos as a reminder that I have worked incredibly hard, so that on days when my back is sore and I’m feeling alone I can be reminded that two years ago it wouldn’t be a sore back, it would have been a month without being able to walk.
I loved myself when I was 320. I love myself now. Putting them side by side shouldn’t inherently be shaming to either, the same as putting a photo of me as a kid next to me as an adult shouldn’t shame either. They are simply photos of two different periods of my life that give me an appreciation for where I’ve been and where I am.
I love Meghan so much, omg.